had our last dance practice with beth..
17th of December, will be the reahersal dy..
without vivien though..
O Lord..
i just hope that performance day,
everything will go smoothly..
nothing will go wrong..
and all the dance group will be dancing good with no mistakes..
so, all the best guys..
give it all out..
your strength! your power!
ps: i love you c=
♥ 11:24 AM
i don't know why i'm angry at her?
izit 'cause of her attitude?
izit 'cause of how she answer me?
or izit 'cause of what a friend she is to me?
i'm really really sick and tired of all this with her..
felt like hell la..
no peace between me and her..
no love between me and her..
how to become true friends like that?
act normal?
i don't think she can do that with a second..
every time show the 'mechok' face..
and always push the blames to me..
how can?
i'm wrong, but she is..
pushing the blames to me??
i don't know la..
she wants to do it like that..
then let her do it..
i just don't want to care anymore..
i'm DONE with her!!
ps: i love you c=
♥ 1:29 AM
LOL..
holidaysss!!!
why izit so bored?
really damn bored ler....
nothing to do...
online, blogging nia...
haiz...
some times go out with friends also reach home late..
go yam cha till 1,2am in the morning...
feel like i'm a owl...
bored+bored+bored!!
ps: i love you c=
♥ 12:58 PM
First shot*
Third shot*
Forth shot*
Last shot*
not quite nice though,
but i still like it...
hehe...
well, before going out for shopping...
took a few photos while waiting for mum...
too bored...
ps: i love you c=
♥ 11:15 AM
tomorrow is shopping time...
will be looking for our hip-hop dance costume..
hmm..
still thinking of what to wear...
but before that, we've already discuss..
wear any t-shirt that is white colour,
buy the same black jacket,
and same unisex hip-hop pants..
LOL..
where to find?
heading to kk(kubang kerian) tomorrow..
to look for it..
but fetch emilia first,
then we'll meet our siao po-vivien..
haha..
well, hope that we can find more than what we wanted..
ps: i love you c=
♥ 9:22 AM
had a dance practice today...
wow!
3pm till 10pm?
long wei...
haiz...
really tired..
whole body aching..
all the pop, lock...
i think i need to drink glucose everyday..
if not i'll be on the ground..
LOL...
thought of resting at home for two weeks..
but two weeks for hip-hop dance practice?
no more rest.. =c
Christmas is just around the corner..
that's why we're practicing the dances..
for me..
i need to memorize three different kind of dance..
tambourine for two, hip-hop for one..
this year's holiday is so short..
i mean, like i can't take a breathe in a sec...
all of us is rushing through everything..
the dances, the songs..
and the costume that we're gonna wear...
LOL..
is a very tired holidays for me in this year..
just feel like lying on the bed..
sleeping soundly..
no one to wake me up..
sleep till i'm full..
ps: i love you c=
♥ 8:56 AM
sitting there..
looking outside, way up high to the blue sky..
with thoughts inside my mind..
how beautiful is the world outside..
lovely people, lovely flowers, lovely place..
how i wish i can always be outside there..
God really created a WONDERFUL, BEAUTIFUL, GLORIOUS world out there..
how i wish, i can see the outside world with my own eyes without people telling me..
understand the facts, feel the things with love..
understand the people, treat others with care..
another moment to go..
and there's where i can go outside there..
live my life......
ps: i love you c=
♥ 9:59 AM
I wonder why..
Some times when I talk to my mum..
I'll sure get angry easily..
And will fight back..
I wonder why..
Even when I'm happy..
but inside of me..
Is forever unhappy..
I wonder why..
Whenever I feel sad about something..
I just wanna cry out loud..
Or just find someone to talk to, share my feelings..
I wonder why..
If I don't get what I want..
I'll get angry, or piss off about it..
And I'll just make my face..
I wonder why..
Why is that I'm making my life so difficult?
Feel everything is hard for me to accept..
Hard for me to work with..
Like my life is upside down with the real world..
I can't control myself..
I can't change myself..
I can't ask myself to accept the truth..
I can't love myself...anymore..
I just CAN'T
ps: i love you... c=
♥ 9:41 AM
I'm tired of being control of someone...My parents...Oh my gosh!
They really get on my nerves...I mean, I know parents control their own children is for their children own good...
Every time need to listen to what they say,
do what they told us to do...
But, we're not some kind of robot you know...We as children, need some freedom too...A little?
Come on, parents!
Can't you guys do that?
It's not a hard thing for you to do it...
I just can't take it anymore...They really control me until I don't know what to do with my life man...It sucks!'I'm your mummy you know, listen to what I say la'
'Help awhile la, so lasy'
'Go and do housework la, watch TV'
'Stupid la I tell you'
'Crazy! you do that again?!'
'Not this one la, bullshit!!! aiya, never mind dy la'
You know, all this, has been in my mind for so many years...And my dad, has made me hate him for many years dy...My love towards him, gone! vanished!I'm regreting for having a dad like him...Comes to my mum...
I don't why...
Some times I love her, some times I don't...
I mean...What kind of stupid life I'm living now?Living with joy? love? care?NUTS!! There's no such things in my life anymore...I wish I could run far away from my family!
I just wish...
FINNISH!
♥ 12:29 PM
